Rihanna strips for Vanity Fair says-I will care about Chris Brown until the day I die
Rihanna is blazing hot in red hair for Vanity Fair's
November issue.The star also stripped down in one shot...On her
reputation,she tells the magazine she is not as wild as the media makes
her out to be..
I honestly think how much fun it would be to live my reputation. People
have this image of how wild and crazy I am, and I’m not everything they
think of me. The reality is that the fame, the rumors—this picture means
this, another picture means that—it really freaks me out. It made me
back away from even wanting to attempt to date. It’s become second
nature for me to just close that door and just be O.K. with that. I’m
always concerned about whether people have good or bad intentions.
Rihanna says her last real, official boyfriend was Chris Brown..
“I was
that girl,” she says, “that girl who felt that as much pain as this
relationship is, maybe some people are built stronger than others. Maybe
I’m one of those people built to handle shit like this. Maybe I’m the
person who’s almost the guardian angel to this person, to be there when
they’re not strong enough, when they’re not understanding the world,
when they just need someone to encourage them in a positive way and say
the right thing.”
So, she
thought she could change him?
“A hundred percent. I was very protective
of him. I felt that people didn’t understand him. Even after … But you
know, you realize after a while that in that situation you’re the enemy.
You want the best for them, but if you remind them of their failures,
or if you remind them of bad moments in their life, or even if you say
I’m willing to put up with something, they think less of you—because
they know you don’t deserve what they’re going to give. And if you put
up with it, maybe you are agreeing that you [deserve] this, and that’s
when I finally had to say, ‘Uh-oh, I was stupid thinking I was built for
this.’ Sometimes you just have to walk away.” Now, she says, “I don’t
hate him. I will care about him until the day I die. We’re not friends,
but it’s not like we’re enemies. We don’t have much of a relationship
now.”
She says before getting back with Chris,she dated Matt Kemp..She said
“We were
still dating … we were just three months in and I liked his vibe, he
was a good guy, and then paparazzi got us on vacation in Mexico. He
handled it well; I didn’t. I got so uncomfortable because now what? He’s
not even able to be seen with [another] girl, because I’m dragged back
into headlines that say he’s cheating on me, and I don’t even [really]
know this guy. Some guys … I don’t even have their number. You would not
even believe it,” she says with a laugh. “I’m serious, hand to God.”
On she just having sex
for fun?
“If I wanted to I would completely do that,” she says. “I am
going to do what makes me feel happy, what I feel like doing. But that
would be empty for me; that to me is a hollow move. I would wake up the
next day feeling like shit.
On Dating rumours
This
industry creates stories and environments that can make you
uncomfortable even being friends with someone. If you see me sitting
next to someone, or standing next to someone, what, I’m not allowed to
do that? I’m like, are you serious? Do you think it’s going to stop me
from having a friend?” But, she adds, “I’m the worst. I see a rumor and
I’m not calling [them] back. I’ve had to be so conscious about
people—what they say and why people want to be with me, why people want
to sleep with me…. It makes me very guarded and protective. I learned
the hard way
On her kind of man
“I
always see the best in people,” she says. “I hope for the best, and I
always look for that little bit of good, that potential, and I wait for
it to blossom. You want them to feel good being a man, but now men are
afraid to be men. They think being a real man is actually being a pussy,
that if you take a chair out for a lady, or you’re nice or even
affectionate to your girl in front of your boys, you’re less of a man.
It’s so sick. They won’t be a gentleman because that makes them appear
soft. That’s what we’re dealing with now, a hundred percent, and girls
are settling for that, but I won’t. I will wait forever if I have to …
but that’s O.K. You have to be screwed over enough times to know, but
now I’m hoping for more than these guys can actually give.Rihanna says
On not having sex
“That’s
why I haven’t been having sex or even really seeing anybody,” she says,
“because I don’t want to wake up the next day feeling guilty. I mean I
get horny, I’m human, I’m a woman, I want to have sex. But what am I
going to do—just find the first random cute dude that I think is going
to be a great ride for the night and then tomorrow I wake up feeling
empty and hollow? He has a great story and I’m like … what am I doing? I
can’t do it to myself. I cannot. It has a little bit to do with fame
and a lot to do with the woman that I am. And that saves me.”